Brian has completed the OATBRAN: One Awesome Tour Bike Ride Across Nevada for the third time. The 428-mile ride took him from Stateline in South Lake Tahoe through Carson City, Fallon, Austin, Eureka, Ely and Baker to the Nevada/Utah border. The ride started last Monday and finished on Friday. While on the ride, Brian did internet reports for Channel 2 in Reno. Follow this link to watch the five reports. Scroll down until you see his picture and the story and go from there. He was back home in Reno about 9:00 Friday night.
Monday, September 30, 2002
He's done it again!
Brian has completed the OATBRAN: One Awesome Tour Bike Ride Across Nevada for the third time. The 428-mile ride took him from Stateline in South Lake Tahoe through Carson City, Fallon, Austin, Eureka, Ely and Baker to the Nevada/Utah border. The ride started last Monday and finished on Friday. While on the ride, Brian did internet reports for Channel 2 in Reno. Follow this link to watch the five reports. Scroll down until you see his picture and the story and go from there. He was back home in Reno about 9:00 Friday night.
Brian has completed the OATBRAN: One Awesome Tour Bike Ride Across Nevada for the third time. The 428-mile ride took him from Stateline in South Lake Tahoe through Carson City, Fallon, Austin, Eureka, Ely and Baker to the Nevada/Utah border. The ride started last Monday and finished on Friday. While on the ride, Brian did internet reports for Channel 2 in Reno. Follow this link to watch the five reports. Scroll down until you see his picture and the story and go from there. He was back home in Reno about 9:00 Friday night.
Back home in Vegas...
It has been a marathon seven days with three stops in Boston, two in Miami, two in San Juan, Puerto Rico, one in Montego Bay, Jamaica, one in Santo Domingo, Dominican Republic, one in Chicago, one in Dallas and one in London. Needless to say I am tired. But I'm off now until the 4th of October, so I'll have some time to revocer, I hope.
Brad and Kanako are in town...they stayed last night and will be here again tonight. I have not yet seen them since I just got home, so that'll be nice to spend a little time with them. I am supposed to be heading out to LA on Thursday for the Josh Groban concert in Pasadena, but I am not sure that is going to hold up. Mom says she may not be able to go and she hasn't talked to my aunt Dynie, who is one of the registered guests. Also, my friend Edie, who is going with me, is having second thoughts. So, we'll see what happens. I am looking forward to it, but everyone else seems to be losing interest. Funny, too, how this was scheduled a month ago, but people have other commitments now. Wasn't this one of their commitments before? Annoying.
It has been a marathon seven days with three stops in Boston, two in Miami, two in San Juan, Puerto Rico, one in Montego Bay, Jamaica, one in Santo Domingo, Dominican Republic, one in Chicago, one in Dallas and one in London. Needless to say I am tired. But I'm off now until the 4th of October, so I'll have some time to revocer, I hope.
Brad and Kanako are in town...they stayed last night and will be here again tonight. I have not yet seen them since I just got home, so that'll be nice to spend a little time with them. I am supposed to be heading out to LA on Thursday for the Josh Groban concert in Pasadena, but I am not sure that is going to hold up. Mom says she may not be able to go and she hasn't talked to my aunt Dynie, who is one of the registered guests. Also, my friend Edie, who is going with me, is having second thoughts. So, we'll see what happens. I am looking forward to it, but everyone else seems to be losing interest. Funny, too, how this was scheduled a month ago, but people have other commitments now. Wasn't this one of their commitments before? Annoying.
Friday, September 27, 2002
From North Cuba...
I am sitting in the sun in Miami, sipping Mai-Tais and the like and having a great time...yeah, right! I really am in Miam (North Cuba) but I am certainly not sitting by the pool, rather, in front of a computer screen. The hotel we stay is for crew members only, and they have amazing amenities no other hotel offers. This is one...free high speed internet access. I hope to sit by the pool later and work on homework. That should be nice.
When I was in San Juan earlier today I got a phone call from my brother. He was somewhere between Ely and the Utah border on Highway 50, nearing the end of the annual OATBRAN - One Awesome Tour Bike Ride Across Nevada. He started in Lake Tahoe on the California/Nevada state line and will end today on the Nevada/Utah stateline. When he called, he was riding his bike! I can imagine it gets a little lonely out there.
When I first sat down to check my e-mail here I got a message from a fellow flight attendant regarding a 9/11/01 story...one that was very sad. It was an e-mail Captain John Ogonowski's brother, Jim, wrote him this month. Captain Ogonowski was one of the pilots on AA flight 11, the first to hit the WTC. It was the only way Jim found to share with his brother how the last year has been and all the things that have happened. Needless to say, it was heart wrenching. For whatever reason, it struck me pretty hard and I became very emotional (this was a few minutes ago). I think talking to my brother earlier today made the tone for the letter even more emotional than it would have been otherwise and it just made me break down. (I can e-mail it to you if you want, let me know.)
It makes me realize how close I am to my brother, and how much I value and enjoy not only being brothers, but friends. I love you bro!
I am sitting in the sun in Miami, sipping Mai-Tais and the like and having a great time...yeah, right! I really am in Miam (North Cuba) but I am certainly not sitting by the pool, rather, in front of a computer screen. The hotel we stay is for crew members only, and they have amazing amenities no other hotel offers. This is one...free high speed internet access. I hope to sit by the pool later and work on homework. That should be nice.
When I was in San Juan earlier today I got a phone call from my brother. He was somewhere between Ely and the Utah border on Highway 50, nearing the end of the annual OATBRAN - One Awesome Tour Bike Ride Across Nevada. He started in Lake Tahoe on the California/Nevada state line and will end today on the Nevada/Utah stateline. When he called, he was riding his bike! I can imagine it gets a little lonely out there.
When I first sat down to check my e-mail here I got a message from a fellow flight attendant regarding a 9/11/01 story...one that was very sad. It was an e-mail Captain John Ogonowski's brother, Jim, wrote him this month. Captain Ogonowski was one of the pilots on AA flight 11, the first to hit the WTC. It was the only way Jim found to share with his brother how the last year has been and all the things that have happened. Needless to say, it was heart wrenching. For whatever reason, it struck me pretty hard and I became very emotional (this was a few minutes ago). I think talking to my brother earlier today made the tone for the letter even more emotional than it would have been otherwise and it just made me break down. (I can e-mail it to you if you want, let me know.)
It makes me realize how close I am to my brother, and how much I value and enjoy not only being brothers, but friends. I love you bro!
Sunday, September 22, 2002
With lots of help from Jenn, my new website is up and running. I wanted to simplify the site since most of the information has been on there for anywhere between one and two years. I kept what I felt was most used, and that was the recipes, calendar and links pages. I hope you like it, let me know what you think. There is a new recipe on the recipe page. I cooked it last night, it took about two hours start to finish and was delicious. It was also a pretty easy recipe to make and follow.
Saturday, September 21, 2002
Funny, funny things come in e-mails...here's a few of the better ones.
Yes, I am an agent of Satan, but my duties are largely ceremonial.
This isn't an office, it's Hell with fluorescent lighting.
I started out with nothing...still have most of it left.
Too many freaks, not enough circuses.
Chaos, panic, disorder - my work here is done.
I'm out of my mind, but feel free to leave a message.
I will always cherish the initial misconceptions I had about you.
Yes, I am an agent of Satan, but my duties are largely ceremonial.
This isn't an office, it's Hell with fluorescent lighting.
I started out with nothing...still have most of it left.
Too many freaks, not enough circuses.
Chaos, panic, disorder - my work here is done.
I'm out of my mind, but feel free to leave a message.
I will always cherish the initial misconceptions I had about you.
Friday, September 20, 2002
This is a good one from one of my aviation classes:
"One person who was fascinated with helium balloons was awarded the Darwin award, for accomplishing a near death feat of exceptional stupidity. He tied several hundred small, party helium balloons to a lawn chair chained to the ground. He expected that when he released the chain he would float up to a comfortable altitude and then use a pellet gun to shoot out balloons and reduce his lift. Instead, he immediately climbed up to a height of over 15,000 feet where a commercial airline pilot was astounded to see him flying. A dangerous helicopter rescue was attempted and succeeded."
Classic. Anyone want to give me a hand blowing up balloons? I think it would be fun. Although, we might have to scale down the number of balloons!
"One person who was fascinated with helium balloons was awarded the Darwin award, for accomplishing a near death feat of exceptional stupidity. He tied several hundred small, party helium balloons to a lawn chair chained to the ground. He expected that when he released the chain he would float up to a comfortable altitude and then use a pellet gun to shoot out balloons and reduce his lift. Instead, he immediately climbed up to a height of over 15,000 feet where a commercial airline pilot was astounded to see him flying. A dangerous helicopter rescue was attempted and succeeded."
Classic. Anyone want to give me a hand blowing up balloons? I think it would be fun. Although, we might have to scale down the number of balloons!
Thursday, September 19, 2002
Back to my old college antics...
Trying to come up with anything and everything to avoid doing homework! Ugh! I love it, right?
I am trying to get over another round of allergies...they seem to be hitting me one after the other. I went to the doctor today for Kenalog shot, so hopefully I just gave them the ol' K.O. We'll see. Otherwise, I will be headed back to work next week with a trip to London, and then another trip with a layover in Miami and Santo Domingo. I guess I better pull that Spanish out of my back pocket again...
I prolly won't do any more flying this week. My instructor is full tomorrow and took the weekend off. I don't blame him, he has been flying for two weeks straight. So, I guess at the end of the month is when I will be going up again.
On October 3rd, my mom, me, my friend Edie and either Beth or my Aunt Diane and I will be going to see Josh Groban in concert in Pasadena. I got the tickets through SeatFiller.com, but I am not real sure how that works. I am waiting to get more information on it. I have a feeling that even though they say we've been confirmed for the concert, you'll have to show up and wait in line and hope you got there soon enough. The tickets are free, so I guess I don't have a lot to complain about. They just don't outright explain it to you that way. Does anyone have knowledge of SeatFiller.com? Let me know what you know, if so.
Trying to come up with anything and everything to avoid doing homework! Ugh! I love it, right?
I am trying to get over another round of allergies...they seem to be hitting me one after the other. I went to the doctor today for Kenalog shot, so hopefully I just gave them the ol' K.O. We'll see. Otherwise, I will be headed back to work next week with a trip to London, and then another trip with a layover in Miami and Santo Domingo. I guess I better pull that Spanish out of my back pocket again...
I prolly won't do any more flying this week. My instructor is full tomorrow and took the weekend off. I don't blame him, he has been flying for two weeks straight. So, I guess at the end of the month is when I will be going up again.
On October 3rd, my mom, me, my friend Edie and either Beth or my Aunt Diane and I will be going to see Josh Groban in concert in Pasadena. I got the tickets through SeatFiller.com, but I am not real sure how that works. I am waiting to get more information on it. I have a feeling that even though they say we've been confirmed for the concert, you'll have to show up and wait in line and hope you got there soon enough. The tickets are free, so I guess I don't have a lot to complain about. They just don't outright explain it to you that way. Does anyone have knowledge of SeatFiller.com? Let me know what you know, if so.
Wednesday, September 18, 2002
Real World Las Vegas has begun!
Tonight's episode was interesting, as always, and the battles have begun. This season promises to be a little more exciting since it was done here in Las Vegas. Of course, the cast is long gone since they started taping on February 13 and ended it in June. They stayed at the new Palms, a cool new place off the strip with great mexican food at Gardunos! Yum! They have more margarita flavors there then I have ever seen before, including chocolate!
There seems to have been a virus that has attatched itself to e-mails circling in out e-mail. Fortunately I ran a check on my system and din't find any, but that didn't stop it from spoofing my address book. If you get anything weird from me, you'll know why. Most of the e-mails have contained no message and have the subject headings "Terms of use" or "Garden of Eden." Bizarre!
I flew again today and landed five times! They weren't all graceful, in fact, only one was graceful, but none were horrible. My instructor says if he weren't there I wouldn't have killed myself. Isn't that nice to know? I wish my med certificate would show up soon...I am nearly ready to solo!
Tonight's episode was interesting, as always, and the battles have begun. This season promises to be a little more exciting since it was done here in Las Vegas. Of course, the cast is long gone since they started taping on February 13 and ended it in June. They stayed at the new Palms, a cool new place off the strip with great mexican food at Gardunos! Yum! They have more margarita flavors there then I have ever seen before, including chocolate!
There seems to have been a virus that has attatched itself to e-mails circling in out e-mail. Fortunately I ran a check on my system and din't find any, but that didn't stop it from spoofing my address book. If you get anything weird from me, you'll know why. Most of the e-mails have contained no message and have the subject headings "Terms of use" or "Garden of Eden." Bizarre!
I flew again today and landed five times! They weren't all graceful, in fact, only one was graceful, but none were horrible. My instructor says if he weren't there I wouldn't have killed myself. Isn't that nice to know? I wish my med certificate would show up soon...I am nearly ready to solo!
Thursday, September 12, 2002
Into the wild blue yonder!
My flight lessons are progressing well, although I have faced an unforseen setback. Because I am a diabetic, the FAA automatically denies the request for a medical certificate and you have to appeal to get it. I knew this. However, what I did not know, was that it takes up to 90 days to get it. They told me they probably will review my case in about ten minutes, but they are reviewing 300 cases at any given time. 90 days. Ugh! You have to have your medical certificate in order to solo. My instructor has given me the pre-solo written exam, and says I will be soloing in the next 5-10 hours. So, we've had to scale back my flight training, and we are going to bypass the solo and move ahead with other training. You need ten hours of solo time in order to get your license, so I'll have to do ten hours at once, I guess. This really sucks.
Anyway, it will give me a little more time to foucs on my school work too, so it isn't all bad.
My flight lessons are progressing well, although I have faced an unforseen setback. Because I am a diabetic, the FAA automatically denies the request for a medical certificate and you have to appeal to get it. I knew this. However, what I did not know, was that it takes up to 90 days to get it. They told me they probably will review my case in about ten minutes, but they are reviewing 300 cases at any given time. 90 days. Ugh! You have to have your medical certificate in order to solo. My instructor has given me the pre-solo written exam, and says I will be soloing in the next 5-10 hours. So, we've had to scale back my flight training, and we are going to bypass the solo and move ahead with other training. You need ten hours of solo time in order to get your license, so I'll have to do ten hours at once, I guess. This really sucks.
Anyway, it will give me a little more time to foucs on my school work too, so it isn't all bad.
Wednesday, September 11, 2002
9.11
I know it almost seems cliche to use the term 9.11, or, now-a-days, to even pay mention to it. But how can we, as Americans, fail to mention or take note today of what happened just one year ago, to remember, reflect and memorialize? It was one year ago today I was sleepy-eyed in my hotel room, having just fallen asleep an hour before from working a red-eye flight to Chicago when my phone rang. It was my brother, Brian, with the terrible news. Together, on the phone, we watched the unfolding tragedy in disbelief, as we all did.
In the past year we have seen the country, the people, come together like never before. What a tribute to all those lost and personally involved. We have thanked the heroes endlessly and hailed those who unselfishly faced danger to save others. Yet, for me, there has been a void in the memorials and praises over the past year. We have failed, as a country, to remember those who faced this terrible adversity first: the men, women and chidlren on board those hijacked airliners. Let us not forget that a flight attendant was first to die that day, followed by two pilots and then 29 other crewmembers, along with the passengers on board. We have heard the battle cry, "Let's roll!" many times, as we commemorate the incredibly heroic acts of those onboard United flight 93. We faintly here about the crews onboard American flight 11, the first to hit the World Trade Center, or United flight 175, the second to hit the Trade Center or AA flight 77, that hit the Pentagon.
There is personal pain here, for me, and certainly the reasoning behind my strong emotions. I visited Ground Zero on September 24, just two weeks after the attacks with my parents. I went back two weeks later and was given a personal tour by NYPD, along with three coworkers. A make-shift memorial had been created along the Hudson River, behind the Financial Trade Center. There, we saw four foot high piles of teddy bears, flowers, cards and t-shirts left by those who lost loved ones. As we read over the tributes, a card laying open caught the eye of JoAnn, one of the flight attendants I was with. She looked up at me, with tears in here eyes, and said, "You've got to read this." So, I bent down to read the card and it read something like this, 'Dear Kevin, we miss you so much. You were a great person and we promise to take care of Beth....' JoAnn knew my wife Beth and so she knew the signifigance of what that card said. We stood there and cried together for a brief moment before having to leave. It became all too clear how lucky I was to not be onboard one of those hijacked airliners. As many know, I often flew to Boston, sometimes several times in one month.
So I take it personally that there is a group of men and women who have been forgotten. Everyone who played a roll in the events of that Septmeber day deserve there place in the hearts and minds of all Americans. So, it is my hope that, from this day forward, when memorializing those tragedies, we remember *all* the heroes.
It is important that today we take a moment to reflect, in the way we sit fit for ourselves.
I know it almost seems cliche to use the term 9.11, or, now-a-days, to even pay mention to it. But how can we, as Americans, fail to mention or take note today of what happened just one year ago, to remember, reflect and memorialize? It was one year ago today I was sleepy-eyed in my hotel room, having just fallen asleep an hour before from working a red-eye flight to Chicago when my phone rang. It was my brother, Brian, with the terrible news. Together, on the phone, we watched the unfolding tragedy in disbelief, as we all did.
In the past year we have seen the country, the people, come together like never before. What a tribute to all those lost and personally involved. We have thanked the heroes endlessly and hailed those who unselfishly faced danger to save others. Yet, for me, there has been a void in the memorials and praises over the past year. We have failed, as a country, to remember those who faced this terrible adversity first: the men, women and chidlren on board those hijacked airliners. Let us not forget that a flight attendant was first to die that day, followed by two pilots and then 29 other crewmembers, along with the passengers on board. We have heard the battle cry, "Let's roll!" many times, as we commemorate the incredibly heroic acts of those onboard United flight 93. We faintly here about the crews onboard American flight 11, the first to hit the World Trade Center, or United flight 175, the second to hit the Trade Center or AA flight 77, that hit the Pentagon.
There is personal pain here, for me, and certainly the reasoning behind my strong emotions. I visited Ground Zero on September 24, just two weeks after the attacks with my parents. I went back two weeks later and was given a personal tour by NYPD, along with three coworkers. A make-shift memorial had been created along the Hudson River, behind the Financial Trade Center. There, we saw four foot high piles of teddy bears, flowers, cards and t-shirts left by those who lost loved ones. As we read over the tributes, a card laying open caught the eye of JoAnn, one of the flight attendants I was with. She looked up at me, with tears in here eyes, and said, "You've got to read this." So, I bent down to read the card and it read something like this, 'Dear Kevin, we miss you so much. You were a great person and we promise to take care of Beth....' JoAnn knew my wife Beth and so she knew the signifigance of what that card said. We stood there and cried together for a brief moment before having to leave. It became all too clear how lucky I was to not be onboard one of those hijacked airliners. As many know, I often flew to Boston, sometimes several times in one month.
So I take it personally that there is a group of men and women who have been forgotten. Everyone who played a roll in the events of that Septmeber day deserve there place in the hearts and minds of all Americans. So, it is my hope that, from this day forward, when memorializing those tragedies, we remember *all* the heroes.
It is important that today we take a moment to reflect, in the way we sit fit for ourselves.
Tuesday, September 10, 2002
Movin' on up...
No, I didn't just win the lottery or Megabucks, however, I have made great progress with my flight lessons. Today I completed flight #6, and my instructor gave me the FAA Pre-Solo written test to complete over the next few days...indicating I will be soloing soon! Now that's exciting! The lessons have been a lot fun, and I really like my instuctor. We seem to get along well, and he gives compliments often, which are very much required. You need to know you are doing the right thing and the right way. I have five more lessons this week, so I will be learning a lot.
Otherwise, I am working on my school work. It's so odd to be in school again, with deadlines and tests to prepare for, but hey, I want to do this, right? Yes, of course. It has been a long time coming, but it's hard to get back in the routine. I don't know if I was ever really in the routine before. Hmm...something to ponder. This time, however, I am looking forward to the classes and the information that I will learn in them. It should be a lot of fun.
And since I have a shit load of work to do, both for flying and for school, I better stop writing and get my ass in gear. Toodles!
No, I didn't just win the lottery or Megabucks, however, I have made great progress with my flight lessons. Today I completed flight #6, and my instructor gave me the FAA Pre-Solo written test to complete over the next few days...indicating I will be soloing soon! Now that's exciting! The lessons have been a lot fun, and I really like my instuctor. We seem to get along well, and he gives compliments often, which are very much required. You need to know you are doing the right thing and the right way. I have five more lessons this week, so I will be learning a lot.
Otherwise, I am working on my school work. It's so odd to be in school again, with deadlines and tests to prepare for, but hey, I want to do this, right? Yes, of course. It has been a long time coming, but it's hard to get back in the routine. I don't know if I was ever really in the routine before. Hmm...something to ponder. This time, however, I am looking forward to the classes and the information that I will learn in them. It should be a lot of fun.
And since I have a shit load of work to do, both for flying and for school, I better stop writing and get my ass in gear. Toodles!
Saturday, September 07, 2002
Hola!
Que tal? Yo hablo espanol solomente aqui, entonces, yo viaje a Santo Domingo en Sabado y todos los passsgeros hablan espanol solamente. Yo no recuerdo ingles! Lo siento. Tu comprende? Uno momento por favor. As Celine Dion would say, "It's all coming back to me now!" Ah, I remember english after all! Happy day, happy day. It has been a long week here in Boston (and all points between here and the Caribbean). I am headed for Bermuda tomorrow and then home. Thank goodness. It will be nice to sleep in my own bed again.
Beth had the first meeting of her investment club today. From the sounds of it, it went really well and everyone got a lot of questions answered. I hope to hear back from Beth tonight with all the details. I am sad she is in Reno with all of our college friends and I am not there with her. That sucks! Oh well...I will prolly be in Reno next weekend for a Reno Air reunion party. That should be a lot of fun. I am going with my friends Janniffer, Stacee and Mary Jo. I get to escort three women to the party! Woohoo!
Que tal? Yo hablo espanol solomente aqui, entonces, yo viaje a Santo Domingo en Sabado y todos los passsgeros hablan espanol solamente. Yo no recuerdo ingles! Lo siento. Tu comprende? Uno momento por favor. As Celine Dion would say, "It's all coming back to me now!" Ah, I remember english after all! Happy day, happy day. It has been a long week here in Boston (and all points between here and the Caribbean). I am headed for Bermuda tomorrow and then home. Thank goodness. It will be nice to sleep in my own bed again.
Beth had the first meeting of her investment club today. From the sounds of it, it went really well and everyone got a lot of questions answered. I hope to hear back from Beth tonight with all the details. I am sad she is in Reno with all of our college friends and I am not there with her. That sucks! Oh well...I will prolly be in Reno next weekend for a Reno Air reunion party. That should be a lot of fun. I am going with my friends Janniffer, Stacee and Mary Jo. I get to escort three women to the party! Woohoo!
Monday, September 02, 2002
Howdy, howdy!
I hope everyone had a nice, safe last (unofficial) weekend of summer. I spent part of mine in one the best summer-esque places ever, Bermuda. Too bad I was only there for an hour and a half. It was all good though. I arrived here in Boston this morning about 6am and took off for Bermuda at 7:50a and arrived back here in Boston about 1:30p. Of course, to add insult to injury, it was raining here when I left for Bermuda and still raining when I got back. Ugh! Tomorrow I am headed to Orlando...hopefully it will be summery there. I must admit, though, the rain here is nice.
I was talking with one of my roommates here at the house and we ended up, briefly, on the subject of that guy who harassed me in training. Which makes you all wonder, what happened to him anyway? Well, I am not sure, for certain, so I guess I'll never know if it was really dealt with appropriately or not. Anyway, I was surprised while talking about it how emotional it made me all over again. I guess it really just shows me how upsetting the whole thing was. I don't know what could be done now. I guess, if someone were to ask me, "What do you want out of it now?" It would be the opportunity to sit down and talk with him about it. I tried to do that, but he never gave me the chance. Maybe that's why it still deeply bothers me.
I hope everyone had a nice, safe last (unofficial) weekend of summer. I spent part of mine in one the best summer-esque places ever, Bermuda. Too bad I was only there for an hour and a half. It was all good though. I arrived here in Boston this morning about 6am and took off for Bermuda at 7:50a and arrived back here in Boston about 1:30p. Of course, to add insult to injury, it was raining here when I left for Bermuda and still raining when I got back. Ugh! Tomorrow I am headed to Orlando...hopefully it will be summery there. I must admit, though, the rain here is nice.
I was talking with one of my roommates here at the house and we ended up, briefly, on the subject of that guy who harassed me in training. Which makes you all wonder, what happened to him anyway? Well, I am not sure, for certain, so I guess I'll never know if it was really dealt with appropriately or not. Anyway, I was surprised while talking about it how emotional it made me all over again. I guess it really just shows me how upsetting the whole thing was. I don't know what could be done now. I guess, if someone were to ask me, "What do you want out of it now?" It would be the opportunity to sit down and talk with him about it. I tried to do that, but he never gave me the chance. Maybe that's why it still deeply bothers me.
